Considering

I'm seriously considering switching back over to WordPress . . . this googling thing goes wonky when I want to simply read the comments . . . anyone else have that unnecessary lag time when you just want to read comments?  I don't want to have to sign in every single blast time I want to see the new comments.  Of course, they do show up in my email, but I don't want to have to sign in to that each time either.

On the upside:  my dilemma isn't whether I can afford to eat tonight.

That puts all this worldly stupidity into proper perspective.

What have you been up to lately?

I have been soul-deep in the Total Consecration . . . week five.  Almost done.  I decided to take the longer journey this year, but I don't think I will do that again in the future.  It's too long and it's making me cranky.  Of course, it's also been good for me.  Like a good health check-up it's been thorough.  I've always found it beneficial, don't get me wrong.  I've also learned I cannot possibly be "totally" consecrated over night.  This is only a beginning and a renewal . . . a resolve strengthener, if you will.  I'm walking this path every day . . . Mary will only lead me as long as I allow her.  Admittedly, I'm a very stubborn child.  She is on the road ahead of me, beckoning, when I dig in my heals (in other words, when I get distracted by the worldly cares).  I love that about Mary:  she never leaves me, but is always there, leading me along.  She even walks beside me, encouraging my every step.  I trust that she wants me to get to Jesus much more than I do at times . . . In my heart, YES, I want to be with Jesus, don't get me wrong.  It's just that, well, I'm weak.  I need Mary's help!

I need to be good so my kids have an example right in front of them as to how to go about the journey.

God, grant me the strength to go beyond desiring it.

Life is Good, but This World is Crazy

I don't watch the news on the telly.  Well, sometimes I get snippets when Dan has the telly on and he's landed on a news channel.  I get my news from Yahoo (terrible source) and friends who post on the important stuff on Facebook (good sources). 

The news just leaves me feeling . . . well, ASSAULTED.

Offended.
Hurt.
Discouraged.
Concerned . . . really concerned for SOULS.

If I can see the blindness and deafness existent in others . . . Lord, preserve me from that same fate!  It's far too easy to fall into the "please the masses" mentality and begin to speak their lingo . . . or, as in my case, say absolutely nothing.

God is going to reprimand me for saying nothing.

I'm afraid of the fight.  It's not that I'm a coward. Not at all.  It's just I want to be able to smartly and objectively tell the truth without ending friendships.  However, it's also that, quite frankly, I'm assuming I'll never "break through" the hardness of certain people's hearts.  They don't see their stand on abortion or homosexual marriage as a hardness against Truth (Godly or biologically).  For such straight-talkers, they sure miss the basic facts!  I mean, they say you can't argue science, but that is precisely what they do.  This is the kind of stiff-necked people we're all up against. 

Rather, I should say, "fighting for".  Because, we are fighting for their very lives:  the importance of their souls!  The dignity that only God gave them!

I pray for courage in this world.  Not the kind of Hollywood feel good kind, but the real, Heavenly kind!

Week Two

The mirror doesn't lie. 

I'm in week two of Total Consecration . . . the week of looking for my ugly. 

But, that's not the only looking.  On this journey to God, I am searching for His Truth . . . . so beauty is everywhere . . . even in this war-torn-by-sin self I call me. 

Isn't that great to know?  That He's all around - everywhere! - all the time. 

Life is good.  Life is precious.  The image in the mirror is less wonky and becoming more clear . . . in becoming more like Him.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, ora pro nobis.  Amen.