Well, life sure likes to increase my indigestion! Honestly.
Okay, God. You wouldn't call me to something if You weren't going to be with me every step of the way. I know I am not alone, and, I thank You. Thank you, Lord, for the knowledge that I have concerning Mother Mary - that I can literally feel her presence with me. And, thank you for the many friends I have in this life who so willingly pray for me and my family. What would we do without each other, Lord?
My oldest son doesn't want to go to Mass any longer. Not because he doesn't believe in God. That, in itself, is good news and gives us great reason for hope! However, he said to me that he doesn't really get anything out of the Mass (not even in the Eucharist - which shocks and saddens me) except the homilies. He does enjoy Father Jon's homilies and the morality in them.
I remember when I was 18. I thought it was the magic age of "I can do whatever I want." I forgot there were going to be consequences. I mean, I knew there was likely to be, but as with so many youngsters, I didn't really care nor pay attention to that. I wanted what I wanted right now. (I still struggle with that credit card thing, but it's pretty much the same thing: use up the credit, but you will have to pay - and most of the time it hurts like heck to do so!). Hopefully, life teaches you lessons that you'll learn from - and become a better person for it.
We are allowing him to make his mistakes. Only to an extent, of course, as he lives under our roof and he relies on us for everything at this point. But, I can't force myself to force him to attend. He is baptized and Confirmed Catholic - so "he knows" . . . . but the world with all it's noise and distractions mixed with his youth is blinding him. Maybe for a time, maybe for a long time. But, rather than agonize over it (and risk losing my own Faith and hope), I choose LOVE. Hope, Pray, Love and don't worry. God has control and He has a plan. I trust in that plan.
Jesus, thank you for these children of ours. Our vocation is to see our children inherit the Kingdom. That's really the only plan. Help me to be a stepping stone and not a stumbling block. Help me to be the light in the world that you want to be seen.
Jesus, I trust in You.
